there is pressure on my diaphragm
like right before a free fall,
before I cry, throw up,
or laugh hysterically.
my head hums to flickering eye lids
as there’s a sparkly liquid
running down my spine and stomach wall.
it is coming right from my head, I think.
these sure are just the side effects
of your new ventilator.
It must have been,
the rhythmed blasts of air
towards our locked hands,
and our beating hearts,
that cause me so much pain today.